end of 2009

wow what a year 2009 has been...

• losing close family members
• gaining new ones
• heartbreak
• relationships blossoming
• swine flu
• finishing school and moving into the big bad world
• turning 18
• having a ridiculous number or amazing nights out with the beauts i call my friends
• getting shitfaced at prom
• passing my driving test with only 3 minors
• going to ayia napa! best week of my life!
• leeds/newcastle for rachael's 21st
• meeting amazing people
• my best friend moving 2 hours away
• skegness-not that i can remember much of it :P
• becoming a better person
• confiding in someone i would never of before
• anniversarys
• tears
• and too much laughter.

too conclude 2009 has been an amazing year with a summer to never forget!

2010 will be so much better though:

• moving on and up in life
• more laughter
• more nights out
• going to the caribbean to get away from everything
• turning 19
• hopefully newcastle again
• maybe a cheeky week away with my beaut friends
• having the summer of my lifetime
• moving to edinburgh :D
• freshers and starting university
• meeting new amazing people and keeping up with the old
• doing the unexpected
• and growing as a person

i can honestly not wait to see what this new year brings for me! whatever it is i'll be prepared :)

xxx

the only way is up!(8)

ooooh how summer flew by!!! booo. well it's september and my best friend moves to aberdeen next saturday-not looking forward to the goodbye but i know its just for a wee while til she comes to visit or vice versa :D
im not going to be all sad and depressed about it cos all you can do is move forward, not forget but move forward.
i really do not have a clue what this gap year has instore for me yet but im super excited to find out!! i can only guess that every tuesday i will be at dusk with my girlies who i have recently realised are there for me! and i have applied to be an 18-30 club rep for summer 2010!! wooo im so excited will be awesome if i get accepted!
ooh yeah im also this new steph who is not naive, doesn't let people walk all over her and can take care of herself!!!...to an extent:P
soo cheers to life and moving up in the world! cos the only person stopping you achieving what you want most in life is the person in the mirror! so im not going to get in my own way anymore cos you only have one life and when things come along its for a reason so don't just side step past them! experience them!!

and that's lifes lesson for today children ;P
over and out x

omg

ayia napa was amazing. i loved every single minute of it, strolling back to the hotel at 5 am and sittin by the pool bar til half 6 in the morning with a cocktail and talking random shit then heading up to the room and comin back to the pool bar for 9 am! haahaaa my poor wee liver.
met so many fantasic peoples who i miss already! done so many stupid things on holiday that were amazing though like my drunken tattoo, winning a pole dancing competition, having russian stalkers trying to break into our rooms, being taken away haha and basically being "one of the guys" :P i love ayia napa! someone take me back now!


i now have no clues what i wana do with my free year tbh i wanna become a rep and move abroad! i hate scotland and all its pish. so confusedddddddddd

and i can't believe my idol died when i was on holiday! i miss him! rip michael!

me rach and louise had a tribute night :P the photos can be found on mines bebo :D:D

:)

i passed le driving test on monday morning. and so far ive gone through a full tank of petrol and its only tuesday night. had a rea..y nice day today-sun was out went shopping for random holiday pish, went a nice wee drive that might i say was waaaay random and in more than one way.
its weird how you think feelings change, but tbh i don't think they ever do.


aaaaaanywaysss ayia napa in 8 hours!
im so excited, i really need a holiday.
x

wowwwweeeeeeeeeee

i can't believe i worked 42 hours over 4 days its madness.
work was hilarious though! i love being on the bar with sarah she makes the funnies. then james with his casper malarky and how casper is going to rape me! haahaa loser.
and yes alec is the biggest pigoat in the universe! haahaa.

im so so so so so busy this next week its unreal, spray tan tomorrow with weeezums and buying the rest of my holiday stuffs, then working wed day and night, working thursday night, PROM ON FRIDAYYYYY then after party at louisesss yaaaay going to get sooo drunk! then working saturday and sunday! then monday there is something im doing but im not mentioning it til later i don't wanna jinxed anything then tuesday i wil pack and wednesday morning im jetting off to AYIA NAPAAAAAAAA :D im soooooooooooo excited-partying everynight at carwash and castleclub yes please, spending my days lying by the pool with a glass of sangria and hot scandinavian guys to look at yesssssss please!! i would not be surprised if i do not come home, i'll sell my car and move there! haahaa.

boom boom boom i want a kitkat boom boom boom i want a kitkat :D:D my new favourite song.

:)

aaaaaah life :)
each day really is a gift and not a given right. the weather has been amazingggg since thursday-gutted i had to work friday saturday and sunday, got the best of the sun before work though yay. getting a bit of tan going on wooohooo. i have noticed though that being a bum during the week is a pretty expensive lifestyle, all i do is shop and go out all the time. even though im meant to be saving for monies for ayia napa which is only 22days away. i can't help it people ask me if i fancy going out and c'mon i can't exactly turn them down :) going to dereks grand opening of argylls on thursday with the workiessss then i can only presume we shall end up going out. and then im going through to kilmarknock with rachie-pooooos on sunday so there is even more money haahaa. i will just need to save after that:P and speak nicely to my momaaa and get her to lend me monies. fingers crossed! if that fails i shall rob a bank :D and even though it was 2weeks tomorrow that i left/graduated from school, it wasn't until today i felt the sense of relief from leaving that i have longed for. this was because today i actually got my ass in gear and went to school and finished my advanced art folio. gooo me!!!
so to round things off life is more than pretty immense right now, its brillllliant. i love my friends, my family, my nights out, my lazy nights in watching teleeeeee, enjoying every minute of the sun, and basically taking each day as it comes!

and its pretty awesome being woken up by the sun everyday instead of a bloody alarm clock going off at 6.45am.
:D:D:D

clean new slate

i thought since i was no longer at school i should start a clean new slate :)
so far my new slate is going pretty well, i have left all the ridiculous drama behind.
i have apologised to people for being a bitch to them, still a few to say it to-but not sure if its the best thing to do maybe leave them. hahaa
i've also decided its better to just trust myself and make myself happy rather than depend on someone else to do it.
in the past few days i've found out i had a really good friend who i have never really treated at a best mate before, he is so understanding, wise:P and to be honest kinda hot :D he thinks he can "relate to me" he's my new big brother and i love him for all his advice on life and help with decision makings and for givin me random lifts here and there at ridiculous times like tonight for example haahaa.
man united lost the champions league tonight, was gutting but was a good night at rachaels though cos she had a wee party :)

seen as its a clean new slate an all that, i wanted to clear up alot of shit with a girl that i thought hated me and vice versa....
hazel is awesome, she is super pretty and really nice, im glads we are talking now cos she is a really nice girl :) thanks for listening to what i had to day, meant a lot that you didn't laugh in my face, you really deserve a decent guy who will treat you like a princess :) x

so i've rambled through this blog, means everything though even though i have had a few big drinks at rachaels :P i really am turning over a new leaf :D gooo me!!!!!!!!!!