wowwwwwweeeee

i didn't know it was possible to feel so many emotions all in one day. jeee whizz.
hyperness, sad, hyperness again, happy, extremely angry, ill because of anger, pretty low, reassured and then happiest i've been since well forever.
i've learnt that things happen for a reason, but yeah so what they've happened and with a little thing called trust i know it won't happen again, yes I KNOW.
things have been said, yet i regret nothing and meant everything.
if it came across as harsh-it had to-just cos i was upset and wanted to get my point across.
i have to admit i was surprised by your reaction.
im glad you talked-let me know some stuff that i didn't already know
and things i wanted to know.
luckily im "stupid" and i let people away with treating me like shit :)
you may think you have treated me like shit, but technically you haven't even done anything wrong.........techhhhnically.
but yeah
im so so so so so so so happy right now. everything got cleared up.
:)
you make me feel so special and that is why im only "stupid" for you.
because your amazing, different but amazing.
and i love that about you.
thank you so much for just being you and words cannot describe it actually.
and oh oh oh as of tonight, i am no longer being "that bitch" i want to retract all the horrible looks i've ever given, all the comments i've said to people that i haven't even given a chance to get to know, and finally i will try my best to get along with everyone, because its a waste of time and evergy arguing with people over petty pathetic things.

okay i take back the word "all" because some of you fuckers really deserved every horrible stare and every harsh word thrown in your direction, but to all of those i don't really know and you don't really know me....im sorry :)

HAAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :) (L) xo!

happy happy happy

im happier than everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
:)
you make me smile and laugh even when i don't want to.
i like yer hugs and yer fly wee kisses ;)
i love when you show me how to use a camera too.
yer jokes are pretty gash but they make laugh
you actually snort when you laugh! HAHAHA its cute.
frog walks are giid
but frog walks with you are the best :)
you say your not whipped but secretly you know you are :P
why else would you grovel and say sorry :)
i like how you confide in me and tell me gossip haha.
you better not disappear anytime soon (or i'll be sad)
cos i like where things are heading.
xxxxxxxxxx ya

(:

everything is just perfect the now. the weather is mega everyday and its gid being able to sit in the sun with a cheeky malibu. being back at school isn't as bad as i thought it would-only 3 weeks left til summer! being 18 is just the cherry on top of the cake, being able to go out anywhere without worrying bout ID is brill, meet so many mazing folk minus the creep who followed me bout falkirk from city haahaa. my party was amaze i had such a giiid night (: and then theres him. he makes me smile lots and lots even without speaking just seeing his face makes me happy, and i hope he knows that. yes steven im talking about you (: teehee
xxx

can't wait for next week!

next week is going to be awesome.
not looking forward to the penniless aspect of it but it'll be goood!
drunken night out for colaaaaaaa's 18th on tuesday
girlie day out on wednesday with a lil efron on the side;)
another drunken night out for ema's 18th on thursday
and me and ema's skins party on saturday night ;)
sooo excited its going to be amazing - i have a hot date for it to;) which makes it even more awesomer heeheee he knows who he is (:

DRUNKAGEEEE!!

x

:)

well I've finally come to my senses after all this time. I don't care if writing this makes me come across as selfish-I just want to do something for myself now-no one else just me. I'm stick of all the arseholes, liars and idiots who seem to be takin me for a ride. I'm sick of the childish games u seem to be into and always having to be the bitch and ask the same question over and over-even though I always get the same answer for some reason it just doesn't reassure me at all. yeah I really like u and stuff but there is just to much drama that comes along with it and tbh I don't want that-I don't want any grudges to be held or any bitch comments to be made whenever were together just because they are not with you. its not because I care what people think of me cos I don't-and no that isn't me saying I'm better than you. I just know I'll be made out to be the arsehole if I react to the comments. I'm not asking you to change or make new friends I'm simply saying that if you really wanted this to work then you would at least try to prevent me from hearing things I don't wanna hear. I've been told I'm a very resourceful person and tbh I am I know all basically. I wrote this not to look like a selfish bitch that only cares about herself but to point out that I'm sick of getting upset about stupid wee things and worrying then having to question you-that isn't who or what I'm about so if things don't change I'm going to be the new steph who trusts no one but herself. I'm gunno be a happier steph who doesn't give a fuck bout all the wee immature dicks who thrive on drama. cos I'm done arguing I'm just done.... ;)x